Sunday, July 24, 2011

I'm alive, I assure you... i just need a long god damn nap.

Working six to seven days a week between two different jobs on top of switching to a new medication (that is doing more worse than good) I am so exhausted and beside myself I don't know what to do, when to do it or have the ability to start it when I at least have most everything together. I just haven't been able to work on anything art related for extended periods of time, which is honestly killing me. It's escalating stress and taking the fun out of it because now I feel like I need to do it when it's something I love doing...

So, I told my boss to cut my hours. I should be working five days a week now. I rather be poor than an unhappy, artless artist. Need to prioritize more and put myself first for once. I get to see my doctor this Thursday and will hopefully get a medication change so I'm closer to normal and can focus on what I want to do rather than what I need to do and being overly fatigue because I work too much and medication robbing my of life and soul. Oof.

While I haven't really been up to anything significant of sorts I've doodled some and done this and that for people (and still have more to do).

I also have a music pen pal. We make cds to each other and send them in the mail. I was a total jerk and took almost six months to send my response and put together a multi-media piece for her to make up for it. What says, "I'm sorry for being a jerk and how does time work" better than art? Nothing. Because artists don't know time. Nope.



 I'm not positive but these are probably the best pictures I have of the art and cd. I forget if I used the cannon to take more, but if I did I'll be sure to add them. The piece is mostly marker, pen and embroidery.

New phone. New old keyboard with sticky keys. Dumb.

I feel like I should also mention that I've been re-watching one of my favorite childhood series: Xena the Warrior Princess. Hello gay subtext. Hello, hello, hello. Never caught that before lol

And then a sketch. Looking at this reminds me of how I need to design my damn tattoos and Jesus christ--it's been a month since my last post and that really puts how exhausted and short on time I've been into perspective. I need an art related job because my head pops. Yep.